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On 30 Day Song Challenge, day 5 is a Song That Reminds You of Someone. I picked Mine by Taylor Swift. It reminds me of Corey; I hope that one was obvious. Why this one reminds me of him is because I have these moments of apprehension like it's not going to work out, because, for me, it never has. I have a problem sometimes believing that I deserve to be happy and to have someone love me.




"you are the best thing that's ever been mine"

highway unicorn (road to love)

The first post today is a video of my feeding Abigail peanut butter. We're at home pretty bored because Corey is sleeping into the afternoon.




"we can be strong out on this lonely road, it's the road to love"

candle in the wind (2)

The fourth day of 30 Day Song Challenge, and the last post I'll make of it today, is A Song That Makes You Sad. I picked Candle In The Wind by Elton John, event though there are a lot of songs that do make me sad. This one always makes me think of Princess Diana and her tragic death in 1997. A couple of honorable mentions are Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns, Just a Dream by Carrie Underwood, and The Hardest Part by Coldplay.






"never knowing who to cling to when the rain set in"

forget and not slow down

Ok, so I'm bored and I'm going to post a couple more just to catch up from the weekend. The third day on 30 Day Song Challenge is A Song That Makes You Happy. The song I picked is Forget and Not Slow Down by Relient K. It's all about not letting regrets from the past that you can't do anything about now make you miserable and slow you down today. "I could spend my life just trying to sift through what I could have done better, but what good do what-ifs do?"



"i'd rather forget and not slow down than gather regret for the things i can't change now"

rolling in the deep

So, I'm definitely not doing the 30 Day Song Challenge in 30 consecutive days. With work, that just can't happen. The second day is devoted to My Least Favorite Song. I have a lot of songs I can't stand, but lately, the song that I hate the most is Rolling in the Deep by Adele. I hate everything about this song. I don't even want to support it by posting a YouTube video, but I will, just to be consistent.




"we could have had it all"

yellow

I found this on facebook. It is a meme. It's called 30 Day Song Challenge, and basically you just follow the rules of what kind of song to post each day.

Day 1 is appropriately My Favorite Song.

My favorite song has been Yellow by Coldplay for several years. I can't tell you exactly why that is, but Coldplay is my favorite group, and I am never not in the mood to hear Yellow. I particularly like the live version from Colplay Live 2003 album.




"look at the stars, look how they shine for you"

untitled

Just a quick post unless I think of something later.

I deleted my Empire Avenue account. It became really absurd when someone in my real life got genuinely upset with me for selling fake shares of their fake stock to get some extra fake money. Not worth it. Stupid website.

I'm really sick of rain and bad weather, by the way. I think I've said that in every way possible. It rained again today which reminded me of it.

Money, again, is freaking me out today. It is crunch time to gather the funds to move into my new apartment, and I'm hoping I end up with enough when the time comes.


"insert lyric here"

hair

Little journal entry for today:
I went to my work's "advanced orientation" this morning. We refreshed what we already learned at general orientation about Mercy Service values and standards. We talked about good points and bad points from our first 90 days of employment. It was boring, and it seemed silly to get paid for it, but it was easy and sort of fun.
Afterward, I gave blood for the Joplin Tornado Relief blood drive. I feel lucky every time I give blood, because I usually have just slightly too high of a heart rate to give. I should probably get that checked out, but I won't worry about it now. I got to give blood, so I was satisfied.

I got Lady Gaga's new cd, which is awesome. She outdid herself again. The whole cd has an '80s feel as far as the themes of the songs and musical styles. Really, the theme "Born This Way" is flowing throughout every song as she stresses the importance of valuing yourself and being happy with who God made you to be.

So, it looks like I might be creeping back up on Empire Avenue. I took about a week's hiatus and my stock took a nosedive. Oh well. That site is absurd. But it is quite fun for the extremely bored. Check out my ticker on the top corner of my blog page.

I want to recommend a YouTube channel that I have become... let's say "fascinated" with recently. It is called Epic MealTime. This group of gentlemen get drunk on LandShark beer and Jack Daniels and make meals usually themed with bacon and assorted meat. The one that inspired the following picture was called Ninja Turtle Soup.

"this is my prayer: that i'll die living just as free as my hair"

born this way

^^For the one in my life who is fascinated by QR codes.

Lady Gaga's album came out today. I haven't bought it yet. But I want to. We'll see. [EDIT: Corey got it for me!!! Yayyy!!!!!]

So I was scheduled as admit/discharge nurse from 11-7 today, but called off for low census. Usually I would welcome getting called off, but I kind of wanted to go to work today. The days I wish I could stay home, there is a full floor, but the days I'd just as soon go, there are not enough patients for me to be there. Sad day.


"i'm beautiful in my way, because God makes no mistakes"

i'll be

Dream story as promised :)

Starts out in an unknown location. He noticed a praying mantis on his arm. He flicked it off and went on with his day. He went to someone's house and noticed that there were several more on his skin trying to dig their way in. There was one left that made its way all the way under his skin. He tried to cut it out, but couldn't. It freaked him out to the point of waking him up thinking the dream was real. He was so weirded out that he had to try and dream of something else.

That is a disgusting dream. A nightmare to him because foreign things/bugs being in his body is the most horrifying thing he could think of happening to him.

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This is sort of an addendum to the previous text which I wrote last night. Corey has decided to apply for a rather intense internship that will take him traveling across the country from July to December. I know it would be a huge opportunity for him, and he would love every minute of it, but I have so many reservations about it. I feel so selfish, but I cannot help what I think. The implications for me are, first and foremost, that I will be without face to face contact with him from July to December. I really am not sure how I would be able to handle that. I also am worried about living alone. I have never lived completely alone, and I am unsure of how I would be able to do it. There are so many situations that we encounter that I do not know how to deal with, and I don't know if I can handle them without him. Money is not even, necessarily, my main concern. I am just worried about handling life without him for six months. I don't know what to do or how to feel, but I hope that I can support him while he applies for this. I know it's what he wants and what he feels like will help him get out of the rut he feels like he's in. As cheesy as it sounds, I really just want him to be happy.


"and i'll be the greatest fan of your life"

don't panic

I'm going to try something every once in a while in my blog. My boyfriend has the strangest dreams, and if he remembers them, I'm going to put them here. Apparently we both have some strange sleeping habits. Last night (and most nights, I guess) I tried to talk to him, but I wasn't making any sense. It's like I try to form words, and what I say is so close to words that it frustrates the hell out of him. But I'm just not coherent enough to form language.

He has paranoid dreams before he wakes up which makes him awake in the most foul mood. The first and second times he woke up this morning, he was in a panic about waking up late to get to work (he did not have to work today) and the third time, he panicked about the lawnmower stopping too close to where our dog poops, and he thought that we were going to get caught and kicked out of his apartment.

So we'll see if he remembers any good dreams, and I'll post them here :)


"everybody here's got somebody to lean on"

first time

Sometime in the middle of the night last night, Corey found this recipe for Red Velvet Chocolate Chip cookies. They are pretty good and turned out nice-looking, so I thought I'd post it on the blog. :)

"don't give up on me, baby"

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