born this way

^^For the one in my life who is fascinated by QR codes.

Lady Gaga's album came out today. I haven't bought it yet. But I want to. We'll see. [EDIT: Corey got it for me!!! Yayyy!!!!!]

So I was scheduled as admit/discharge nurse from 11-7 today, but called off for low census. Usually I would welcome getting called off, but I kind of wanted to go to work today. The days I wish I could stay home, there is a full floor, but the days I'd just as soon go, there are not enough patients for me to be there. Sad day.


"i'm beautiful in my way, because God makes no mistakes"

i'll be

Dream story as promised :)

Starts out in an unknown location. He noticed a praying mantis on his arm. He flicked it off and went on with his day. He went to someone's house and noticed that there were several more on his skin trying to dig their way in. There was one left that made its way all the way under his skin. He tried to cut it out, but couldn't. It freaked him out to the point of waking him up thinking the dream was real. He was so weirded out that he had to try and dream of something else.

That is a disgusting dream. A nightmare to him because foreign things/bugs being in his body is the most horrifying thing he could think of happening to him.

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This is sort of an addendum to the previous text which I wrote last night. Corey has decided to apply for a rather intense internship that will take him traveling across the country from July to December. I know it would be a huge opportunity for him, and he would love every minute of it, but I have so many reservations about it. I feel so selfish, but I cannot help what I think. The implications for me are, first and foremost, that I will be without face to face contact with him from July to December. I really am not sure how I would be able to handle that. I also am worried about living alone. I have never lived completely alone, and I am unsure of how I would be able to do it. There are so many situations that we encounter that I do not know how to deal with, and I don't know if I can handle them without him. Money is not even, necessarily, my main concern. I am just worried about handling life without him for six months. I don't know what to do or how to feel, but I hope that I can support him while he applies for this. I know it's what he wants and what he feels like will help him get out of the rut he feels like he's in. As cheesy as it sounds, I really just want him to be happy.


"and i'll be the greatest fan of your life"

don't panic

I'm going to try something every once in a while in my blog. My boyfriend has the strangest dreams, and if he remembers them, I'm going to put them here. Apparently we both have some strange sleeping habits. Last night (and most nights, I guess) I tried to talk to him, but I wasn't making any sense. It's like I try to form words, and what I say is so close to words that it frustrates the hell out of him. But I'm just not coherent enough to form language.

He has paranoid dreams before he wakes up which makes him awake in the most foul mood. The first and second times he woke up this morning, he was in a panic about waking up late to get to work (he did not have to work today) and the third time, he panicked about the lawnmower stopping too close to where our dog poops, and he thought that we were going to get caught and kicked out of his apartment.

So we'll see if he remembers any good dreams, and I'll post them here :)


"everybody here's got somebody to lean on"

first time

Sometime in the middle of the night last night, Corey found this recipe for Red Velvet Chocolate Chip cookies. They are pretty good and turned out nice-looking, so I thought I'd post it on the blog. :)

"don't give up on me, baby"

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candle in the wind

I did wake up in the middle of the night and watch The Royal Wedding today. Ten in the morning London time was four in the morning Central Standard Time in the States. And of course it was absolutely beautiful. This event brought back out my fascination and secret obsession with the British monarchy and British history in general. As much as the United States is our own country, we lack the sense of national pride and regal-ness of having royal monarchs. As "independent" as we are from Britain, their kings and queens are still our kings and queens to follow, love, and pray for. I spent all day watching royal weddings on YouTube of William and Kate, Queen Elizabeth and Prince Philip, the Queen Mother Elizabeth and King George VI, and Princess Diana's funeral. Elton John singing Candle in the Wind makes me think of her every time and it makes me cry.

For anyone who hasn't seen it, here is the video of Catherine, Duchess of Cambridge walking down the aisle.




God bless the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge and God Save the Queen!


"your candle burned out long before your legend ever will"

band on the run

This is definitely a test email to see if the mobile blogging I set up works.  I probably will never use this, but I'm bored in the rain and wanted to try it out.  :)


"the rain exploded with a mighty crash as we fell into the sun"

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praying for sunny days

It's been a long time since I updated. Obviously. Quite a bit has gone on in my sabbatical from blogging, though! I am now working at Mercy Medical Center as an RN. :) And yes, I did pass NCLEX first time! 220 questions into the test, mind you. Horrifying. The test definitely lived up to the hype about being a fairly terrifying experience. I am grateful I won't have to do that ever again. In any case, I am doing well as a new nurse and am fully off of my orientation period at the hospital. I love where I work, and I hope I don't have to leave any time soon!

In current events in Northwest Arkansas, it has been raining basically non-stop for a week. On Good Friday, we had several tornadoes and severe thunderstorms in the area, with a particularly ominous wall cloud passing over the hospital with some rotation in it, causing us to basically go into lockdown, not letting anyone - coworkers or patient family members - leave the building. In retrospect, since no tornadoes actually occurred in the Pinnacle/Rogers area, it was a rather exciting experience. Yesterday, I was at work during a ferocious flash flood of the entire area. I was able to get home since the flash flooding had gone down by 7:30pm when I left work, but many roads and homes were flooded all evening. Let's just say I am more than sick of spring severe weather and am ready for an Arkansas summer drought. I don't know what the deal is with our area and accumulation of excessive precipitation this year. (Recall the Snowpocalypse: 23 inches of snow, not fun)

The last bit of life update I will leave off with is a picture of our puppy, Abigail. She is seven months old and some kind of lab/other stuff mix. She is a very naughty puppy, very silly, but we love her. :)

"seeking the warmth of the solar rays"